I can't differentiate whether this is love, liking someone, or just getting way too dependent to someone who showed you care a little and expecting too much from it.
Yeah, maybe you do like him, you do care about him. And you decided to use whatever time remains to have fun with him since he will be out of country next year. But if you were this anxious, is this really worth it? However, you do understand how busy he is, and how sociable he is with his old friends. You know how he rarely opens his phone when interacting with someone, how he so unlike you in terms of replying chats and all. And if you have a relationship with him, you have to understand that. That's why at times I think that no, he was not for me, I can't deal with this, I should stop. But why does that make me feel so sad. Is it because like I don't have any men in my life? Lonely little sag of pimples and insecurities all in one package of clingy trysh huh
But I think you need to tell him too, how anxious he makes you and all. But I'm afraid that he might go away. I mean we don't have any commitment, he doesn't want to get serious any time now. What do I expect? He's free to go out and not telling me anything. But why does that make me feel sad. Do I have attachment issue again?
Yes this toxic for me. But how do I manage my future relationship if now I can't even deal with things like this?
sumpah ga enak banget perasaan dalem hati kayak seminggu ini chatnya ga enak gitu loh cuma lapor2 doang dan flirting2 doang tapi kayak kurang tapi kayak gimana doi sibuk banget gue juga ada aja kerjaan. harusnya kamis kemaren nonton bareng huf. hari ini mau ngajakin malemnya tp doinya malah abis kerja udah ada janji sama temen lain. gue sakit aja gitu loh dalem hati kayak sepi ga enak ga enak banget gatau harus gmn huhuhuhuuHUHUHUHUHU gatau harus gmn
Yeah, maybe you do like him, you do care about him. And you decided to use whatever time remains to have fun with him since he will be out of country next year. But if you were this anxious, is this really worth it? However, you do understand how busy he is, and how sociable he is with his old friends. You know how he rarely opens his phone when interacting with someone, how he so unlike you in terms of replying chats and all. And if you have a relationship with him, you have to understand that. That's why at times I think that no, he was not for me, I can't deal with this, I should stop. But why does that make me feel so sad. Is it because like I don't have any men in my life? Lonely little sag of pimples and insecurities all in one package of clingy trysh huh
But I think you need to tell him too, how anxious he makes you and all. But I'm afraid that he might go away. I mean we don't have any commitment, he doesn't want to get serious any time now. What do I expect? He's free to go out and not telling me anything. But why does that make me feel sad. Do I have attachment issue again?
Yes this toxic for me. But how do I manage my future relationship if now I can't even deal with things like this?
sumpah ga enak banget perasaan dalem hati kayak seminggu ini chatnya ga enak gitu loh cuma lapor2 doang dan flirting2 doang tapi kayak kurang tapi kayak gimana doi sibuk banget gue juga ada aja kerjaan. harusnya kamis kemaren nonton bareng huf. hari ini mau ngajakin malemnya tp doinya malah abis kerja udah ada janji sama temen lain. gue sakit aja gitu loh dalem hati kayak sepi ga enak ga enak banget gatau harus gmn huhuhuhuuHUHUHUHUHU gatau harus gmn
