God exists?

 I was feeling fairly desperate when I wrote my last post - basically just feeling stuck and didn't know what to do??

When I finished writing the last post, I feel that I really need to talk to someone about this, because I just don't know what to do.

Friend 1 had reach out to me earlier but I didn't reply out of fear that she would now be available. I know she would be able to understand my feeling, so I decided to ask her if she's currently in the capacity to tend to me.

Reached out to my distant ex-crush - though I don't talk to him often anymore, but I thought he is someone I could talk to about this matter. He didn't get back.

Then, Friend 1 replied to me and willingly guide me through this.

Then, Friend 2 suddenly reach out! Out of nowhere. Someone who have been very reliable but unavailable at the same time, who always come when I was not at my best. Which is sucks, because I want to be a fun friend for him.

Then I proceed to a very healing conversation with both of them. Can't express how grateful I am for them, for bringing me out of the rabbit hole while letting me grief. God actually hear my desperate plea for the right people to confide. This doesn't happen often, but still, I thank you, God.

I truly wish I could give it up to you more willingly and trust my life with Your plan. I hope I can. Give me strength and kindly provide the very best life for my amazing friends, God. And many other people that I love. Thank you God. Thank you.